When there are troubles within us we must addres them head-on. Do not look for distractions. Distraction is not the solution

Sadhguru 2020

In 5th grade she recognized
Value between her legs.
Molested by means of transport.
On her way home from school.
The disgrace of a man
Roughly and barefacedly
Reached for her pure thighs.
Attempting to plunder her innocence away.
How no one saw
Beats her till this day.

Paralyzed with terror
Fear emerged from her soul.
Inhibiting her to tell a soul.
What if he comes for her?
What if no one believes her?
What if she’s somehow blamed?
She is just so afraid!
Afraid of what her family
And friends might think and say.

Growing up was back – breaking.
Her father and brother are the only
Worthy male figures in her life.
She is frightened by boys.
Unable to think about them
And commands them
With her controlling nature.
For they are a constant reminder
Of what happened to her.
With her gonzo big brown eyes,
She tries her best to
Cover up each inch of her body.

Incompetent to trust anyone.
She feels exclusive.
Pushed against the edge,
As no one is there to save her.
She eats herself away,
As she bottles it all in sight.
But hopefully, she’ll have someone.
Someone to save her in time.

Pombili Shilongo ~The Humanitarian~

Sexual assault such as rape or being molested can be a very traumatic and sensitive thing that we just bury deep within, and sadly to say one of the prominent crimes equivalent to abuse that people experience everyday especially women and children.

I wrote the poem above in the spirit of acknowledging how this type of harm affects individuals and destroys their lives in a split second. However if you were sexually harmed even if there wasn’t any penetration but someone forces you in a way that is uncomfortable (doesn’t matter how it happened or how long it has been since it happened ) talk to somebody immediately! Be it someone you trust, your mom or seek professional help and get yourself a therapist. Never allow yourself to take the blame. That is a heavy burden to carry; trust me, I know. The scar will always remain but if you don’t seek help the enemy will use it to try and destroy you.

Another thing is that, God redeems and heals! So we need to renounce what has happened to us and forgive the perpetrator, not because they deserve it but to free ourselves. You might not understand why it happened to you now but, I believe that everything does happen for a reason and sometimes bad things have to happen for someone to be saved and for his glory, from being a victim to spreading the word of God and the wonderful things he has done for you.

The bible says “Worship God in spirit and in truth” and that is the truth. We need to be truthful with what has happened to us and confess to God so that he can start with the healing process, but as long as we carry guilt and shame it causes more pain. So let us see the truth, our truth.

Let’s also learn to protect, understand and support our children and women instead of judging them…🙂


5 thoughts on “Disadvantaged

  1. Hi there Claudia.

    Firstly, I’d like to say thank you for following my blog; not only because I appreciate the support you’re giving me, but mainly because it’s led me here to your inspiring blog. I’ve been blogging for almost a year now and I’m sad to say there aren’t many Namibian bloggers like you and me around–or perhaps I just haven’t discovered them yet–so I’m always delighted to come across a fellow Namibian here on the blogosphere.

    Secondly, I want to take the time to commend you for writing the above poem. As a man, I hate that it’s mainly my gender that carries out such cruel acts. I sympathize with the victims and I’m angered by the perpetrators. I love the creativity behind the poem, I think it takes someone strong and courageous to write a poem of this nature. Many of us shy away from topics like these, so I thank you for writing and sharing a poem that will make people think about the so-called ‘elephants in the room’. Your use of language is so evocative it conveys the pain of the victim from the poem straight into my heart. I’m glad to have come across your blog and I’m looking forward to reading more of your works.

    Once again thank you for following me and have a pleasant Thursday afternoon

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    1. Thank you so much Lazarus🙏… this really means a lot coming from a fellow namibian blogger and great poet🔥… I too have read your work and I must say it’s amazing🌠. Not to mention the content of your blog, absolutely profound💯… And its my pleasure.
      Have an amazing day ahead as well…😊

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  2. you’re welcome😊although it’s no biggie for me to give positive feedback to people who inspire me. I’m thrilled you think my work is profound🙏and I feel honored that a 3rd year Bachelor of Arts UNAM student finds the work of a 1st year Bachelor of English NUST student amazing💯

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  3. Yeah it is quite fun. Or it was before the Corona rudely interrupted the normal learning process. I can’t tell you how much I look forward to normal campus life. Online learning is convenient for those of us lucky enough to have the devices and the connectivity, but it isn’t the same as having access to face-to-face interactions with your classmates and lecturers.

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